Yesterday (Sunday) was a particularly interesting “Spring” day and I over planned it only to be paying for it today. Since the Mr. has been working on Sundays I’ve been going to the grocery store before church (roughly 8am) because it’s way less crowded and it gives the Munchkin and I something to do other than be sloth-like and have the TV on in the morning.
How much time do we really have? I have been struggling since the Munchkin, and to be honest, since before the Munchkin, to figure out what I REALLY like to do. What are my hobbies as an adult? I do a great job of “adulting” and taking care of the productive to do list but what do I do for fun? What does it feel like to be “alive” for me?
The Mr. has been away for work since Sunday, he came back today but I am so ready for him to come home. I’m really not good at doing this by myself. Sometimes I’m not good at doing this with him either but I really suck as a toddler mom (or just mom) some days. And I’m not saying this out of a place of self-pity or a place of anxiety. I am just not the best at handling the illogical little human that currently tries to run the house and throws a fit when things don’t go her way. I didn’t realize milk tastes different when it’s in the blue cup versus the pink cup. I didn’t realize food tastes different with the Moana fork but alas here we are.
I know I’ve only been at this gig for almost three years but I’ve developed some philosophies about parenting in that short time. The internet is a treasure trove or minefield so take this as nothing more than my own experience and mantras, both as a high school teacher and a mom.
I’ve been thinking a lot about self care. I’m not sure where I am in my self-care journey since I’m still trying to figure out how to live in the “messy middle” of getting it right and just getting it done but but I have come to realize a few things about self-care….
Here we are, one month into 2019. One twelfth down, or 8.3%, eleven-twelfths left. I had posted about my goals for 2019 here and thought I could write an update every month to see how it’s going; that will also help keep me thinking about them. Here’s my 19 for 2019 list that is hanging on my fridge:
If you’ve done the math I’ll be 3 years postpartum in March of this year. While many women struggle to get their “pre-baby” body back or back into regular clothes as soon as possible I have relished maternity clothes and am in fact still wearing quite a few of them. I have a couple reasons for this so hear me out….
I’ve been listening to the Munchkin for almost the past month wish most people “Happy Christmas” instead of the more traditional “Merry Christmas” used here in the US. I wondered where she came up with it because we are very clearly NOT British (the usual suspect of Happy Christmas) and she’s not old enough to watch all my beloved BBC shows with me yet so I decided to do a little digging into the Happy versus Merry difference.
This year was the first year I attempted the “one word” for the year and you can see my post here about choosing the word “forward”. I chose forward for a lot of different reasons but mainly because I felt like I had stalled in my adulthood. It wasn’t really in a bad way but I felt like I had hit a wall in my growth and was just trying to find out who I was as a person again. I think all in all I did pretty well in 2018.Continue reading “Year in Review – Forward in 2018?”